Saturday, October 13, 2007

i made some homemade gingerbread men this morning...i set out tea and cookies for you to enjoy as you catch up on reading my blog.....

i hope that milk and honey is ok for your tea, that's how i'm having mine.....

don't worry, i didn't go out and buy those gorgeous lilies just for our visit on here today...they're left over from mom's visit last monday, tuesday and wednesday....wow, they were absolutely the freshest, most gorgeous, un-stank lilies i've ever bought! i was a little worried when i bought them since i only bought four stems of them and not a single bud was opened yet...by the time mom and i returned to my apartment from the port authority bus terminal and a few bead shops in the garment district several had started to burst open.


you should have seen mom's eyes pop out of her head when she saw the first bead shop one - picture cartoon creature with eyes popping out in surprise, add the boing-oing-oing noise and you almost have the right picture of that moment....there are about 14 beadshops around a single city block (seventh avenue, 37th street, 8th avenue and 36th street). by the time we left the bead shops, after being thrown out with bags and bags and bags of beads (and might i add tons and tons of luggage), it was raining, and i of course, once again, could barely stand up, yet alone walk.











it was suddenly pouring buckets on us and it was hot for a combined effect of misery on my part - sorry mom! - we managed to walk around the block - AGAIN - towards the east side subway (the green one - you know, the 4/5/6 line) at grand central station. we only made it as far as bryant park which is the beautifully maintained jewel of midtown's busiest commuter crossroads...directly behind the new york public library, the famous one with the lions, it has a terraced garden that comes down from the back entrance to the library for 4 small flights of ornately carved marble steps and lands in a great lawn, the size of an entire huge city block. the great lawn is surrounded with an italiante garden fence, a leaning fence if you will (you can sit on, or lean on it for hours taking in the beautiful people and the busy streets around the park). the far end has a great fountain that has been repaired and is once again spraying anyone that dares too close. they've put in a restaurant and a bar on the terraces all with huge tables and giant umbrellas. it's great. it's also a wi-fi hot spot sponsored by AMEX so you can sit there with a laptop and be connected, the best part is it's free....they've also got a garden "reading room" which was new to me...it's sponsored by the HSBC banking company. you can give them a piece of i.d., choose a book, newspaper, or magazine and take it anywhere you like to read it (i'd say in the park since you want your i.d. back and why would you want to leave?)

across the park, on the south side which is 41st street, they have installed an antique, hand carved, wooden carousel which if i recall correctly was originally built for children in the city of Paris. it has been totally restored, right down to the calliope pipes that jut from the center of the vaulted roof over the carousel....








by the time we got this far into our visit, it was about 7:30pm monday night. you can see it was dark out. mom isn't a huge fan of the city at night. i can understand her fears, since she's not used to constantly being swarmed by droning children rushing too and from school or soccer or whatever...and when you're rushed by the clackers, (the beautiful women, career girls if you will, all wearing huge stilleto heeled shoes, and tightly fitted business suits) it can feel a bit like an attack of the amazon women....especially as you try to navigate the cityscape with a rollaboard suitcase as they pelt you with umbrellas and laptops in oversized fashionable tote bags, or worse, their own luggage on wheels...sometimes, the crush of tourists and businessmen in is tantamount to swimming upstream against a very strong rushing current, and it feels like you're going to hit rapids any minute...frequently, you do, as most people don't pay attention to who they run over with their luggage....i try to be more conscientious than that myself...but that's me....sometimes, when there's construction on the street, particularly near port authority, along 42nd street, the sidewalk is narrowed due to scaffolds and safety fences...often, they've got concrete jersey barriers up blocking a lane of the street from traffic and redesignated as "sidewalk" while the sidewalk is completely lost behind a wall of boards while they erect yet another concrete and glass monolith as a tribute to man's ego and his need to reach ever higher heavenward, all while maintaining firm footing in the bedrock....these sidewalks are the worst to navigate. in fact, they have given me panic attacks, and that means i am forced to climb the barrier and walk in the on coming traffic lane which is really a menace and a dangerous endeavor....

for those trapped between the scaffolding, the boarded wall and the jersey barrier, it is down to single file foot traffic in each direction. if you're the unfortunate one dragging luggage, it becomes the slapstick re-interpretation of the classic western battle, good versus evil, as you go along your direction with your competitor coming right at you...bags down and guns blazing...it's a shootout to the death....you steady your resolve, take aim and propel 10 paces forward and suddenly, face to face, breath smoking from the humidity and lungs chugging from the effort, heart pounding with uncertainty and hands gripping luggage for dear life, you find only one of you can make it thru alive and with luggage in tact...the loser of this shootout is the one who steps over to let the victor pass...unfortuntately, the loser now has found his or her luggaage flipped over sideways/upside down/on it's back or worse, face first in the grime puddles that riddle such western outposts (west side of manhattan atleast). the victor rushes onward to either port authority and climbs with pride into his bus and gets home clean and on time for dinner, or rushes back to grand central where she can mount her train towards the place where all victors go (no, not heaven, but west chester county, which i'm told is sort of like achieving nirvana.)

we had no such drama, or luck, if you will...with a strong knack for avoiding showdowns at the cross-town-corral, we followed the narrow, winding paths left by the early rising workers of the garment districts' concrete and glass tee-pees towards the interior of grand central station, here, once again, i was forced to complain, an admission really, that i was having such severe pain in my legs and feet that i couldn't stand any longer, yet alone keep walking....we were so close to getting home by now and yet 100 paces to the train were out of my range of motion and we had to sit in the midst of all the hubbab. mom enjoyed sitting and staring up into the bright blue cerulean sky of the vaulted ceilings in the station...there, she tried to identify each of the constellations that were clearly outlined and sparkling in the early evening darkness. i found less consolation in the 10 story high "heavens" since i had the great good fortune to have worked on the renovations that rediscovered and recreated the original ceiling fresco....i sat there trying to stretch out my cramped and screaming feet...the only thought that even remotely passed through my mind was when i asked mom if she remembered that i had worked on this project when i worked with LaSalle Partners (the 3rd largest corporate real estate company in the u.s.a., the merged with jones lang woonton, a london firm, the largest in europe, about 7 or 8 years ago now, and combined they are the largest owner/manager/retailer and renter of property in the world, under the name of Jones Lang LaSalle). hard to believe i worked with them 12 and 13 years ago already! i loved that job. not only did i work on the renovations at grand central station, but i also was on the core team for the top secret disney project (project simba - no longer a secret,) to find a pre-existing historical theater to be bought by the walt disney company, totally renovated to within an inch of it's life while maintaining the historical accuracy of the interior and the public areas...all for their up coming project of The Lion King. the project was amazing to work on - we wound up on 42nd street, buying the crumbling and decaying theater once owned by florence ziegfield - the home of the infamous follies and the lesser known "hanging rooftop gardens," (unless your a theater devotee and perhaps you've seen the movie "ziegfield girl" starring judy garland and a slew of other famous names). the rooftop itself was collapsing and the rooftop of the building had been covered in net to stop animals and birds from coming into it. there was 40 years of water damage to the inside, (it had been converted to a movie theater in the 50's and by the sixties the entire place was vacated and repossessed by the city of new york for tax liens and such), yet disney, true to their pledge, kept the reconstruction absolutely 100% accurate to ziegfield's orginal design and construction a hundred years before. because of the roof's collapse into the theater, they were able to create fly space above the stage (which had been boarded over and we weren't able to access before purchasing - we could only imagine it from design files submitted to the city by ziegfield a hundred years earlier....boy were we in for surprise after surprise after surprise!) due to the machinations of the anticipated musical piece to be performed in this space, disney and co. insisted that they needed a much larger space than any modern theater could offer, yet alone one built to put on a show that had it's technology limited to a man pulling a rope that had pullies attached....even the lightening in the theater was a challenge since when it was built, electricity was not the norm for the theaters of the city and it had gas-lamp fittings visible along the balcony as well as under the stage along what had once been an orchestral seating area. disney prevailed....after the sale of the building we immediately started on demolition which took six months. so careful not to remove a single seat of the balcony without making sure to find the largest and best piece of fabric remaining of the original upholstery, we were able to have it cleaned (and cleaned again, then again, and again) until we had a general idea of the true original colors and fabric design...then we had thousands of yards of matching fabric hand woven over seas to reupholster the 1,800 seats that would line the balcony, the par-terre boxes that lined the walls and the seats that would be hand carved to replace the ones installed 60 years earlier to make it a movie house...the costs were staggering!

the woodwork in the entire building was ornately carved in an early rendition of art decco. ziegfield was ahead of his time on this decor! when we were finally able to remove the boards covering the proscenium arch across the stage, this had become the projection screen, we found an amazing remaining red velvet curtain....in tatters of course, but you could see the quality of the hand stitching and the expense that was put into the silk fringe lining the bottom edge and the sides that would have drawn back diagonally towards the ceiling to reveal the ziegfield girls as they descended from their fantastic underground lair via a detailed cast iron staircase that descended 3 stories under the city sidewalks, and that catwalked 3 stories above street level for the ladies to get onto the stage or up to the rooftop theater for the fabled hanging garden where every night tuesday through saturday, the after theater rush of famous people and theater stars would come post dinner, (wrapped in ermine and pearls, chinchilla and diamonds, fox and emeralds, mink and rubies or any conflux of the finest silks, wools feathers, bows and patent leather,) here 1,000 of ziegfield's closest friends (atleast for the evening) would see a "private" 1AM performance of his most famous and highest paid girls...among them the fabled Fanny Brice (of jingle bells fame...or funny girl...depending on how gay you truly are ;+D ). the 1AM show would also feature an orchestra as well as several guest performances, never pre-determined or announced, instead, they were culled from the celebraties in attendance that evening, and always, the orchestra was so talented and well rehearsed, that they would know the exact music, the right key and be able to accompany someone they'd never played for, but who's song was the big one of the hit parade....i wish i could have been there....even as i stood there and dreamed it into vibrant colors and noisy, smoky applause in my head, i was overwhelmed by a sense that i had missed the place in life i was meant to be....

we had to drill into the proscenium arch to get core samples of paints used in the building by ziegfield. this was a complicated task. the arch is exactly that, an arch...but it was 2 1/2 stories tall. the floor of the stage was partially collapsed into the underlying dressing rooms - these were the dressing rooms of the stars, nearest the stage. we had to erect scaffold the width of the entire interior of the theater so no one would be in danger of falling thru a weak spot in the floor. once the scaffold was in place, much like giving a boneless chicken some bone structure, we were able to climb like the theater monkeys we were becoming, up to the top and secure mesh wire from one end of the theater to the other as well as from side to side. this was time consuming, difficult and very, very expensive, but without it, we were in equal danger from the collapsing roof as the collapsing floor. now we were safe with tons and tons of weight distributed through the entire building, we weren't going anywhere near the basement until we wanted to descend there, and there was no chance of the remaining hanging gardens becoming the famous falling garden that crushed a crew of hundreds....we were happy....but soon, we were to become ecstatic!

six of us climbed to the very peak of the arch, up hundreds of rings of scaffold, to stand on a floating island of wooden planks....it was terrifying since i'm afraid of heights and climbing scaffolding is not high on my list of favorite things to do...heck...monkey bars are scary to me....i still have a hard time believing i ever faced my fears with so much reckless abandon and came thru it not only unscathed, but with some of the most valuable memories a person could ever be lucky enough to own, yet alone to share....this is one of them...and it's priceless....we are all standing in the center of the scaffold on a step ladder to reach the woodwork we're about to drill. the head of my office, who happened to be my boss, since he was the director of TRG (tenant representation group), that was peter, a senior partner that i loved working with (ruth ellman), an associate (frank small), another one (phil liebow), myself and another young consultant. there were several disney folks in the building overseeing and working with the contracting and architectural teams...we had our core sample materials, a drill, packaging and lables as well as a gridded architectural rendering of the arch, set to scale so we could precisely mark where we had drawn each of the 50 or so samples from. you have to remember, the building was now over 100 years old, and in 100 years, there was water damage, there was fire and smoke damage (a normal thing when gas lamps are involved, fires happened on stage all the time since the foot lights alone would have frequently caught curtains, scenery, fly-ropes as well as sandbags used for fly weights (a tie off for the ropes) would catch quickly when even millimeters too close...and this doesn't include the fires started by costumes that were often bursting into flames due to trains and capes of feathers singeing and igniting as someone would rush offstage to change (and be extinguished!) - that's why the stage hand workers still have such a strong union - they used to be very necessary and had a very dangerous role!

that said, peter and ruth each began to drill on opposite sides of the arch. phil and frank were packaging the samples and sending them down the scaffold while i, and my colleague both marked the samples and the graphs with precise coordinates as well as going back to the drilling spot to leave a marker that matched the marker on our charts. this process took us 2 or 3 days. it was back breaking and tedious...then, the most amazing thing happened.....

to the lower left hand corner of the archway, the drill stopped getting anything in the core. it came out with 1/2 inch of dirty, rotten, wood...the exact, but random location of that core drilling was hollow. we didn't know what to make of it. we didn't get what we needed so peter move a few inches to the left and drilled again. the noise was weird coming from his drill....everyone stopped what they were doing because of the noise...it sounded like the drill was twisting into metal, but there should have been no metal there, it was carved wood. again the core came out with 1/2 inch of dirty, rotted wood....we were there for the same reason, but we were asked to mark this spot on our grid so we could go back to it later with a flash light and see if we had hit a beam or structural piece of the room somehow, but it seemed unlikely since we could see the roof where we were at that moment was still balanced above us and looked fairly secure. moving 4 more inches to the left, peter drilled again, expecting the sound of metal or a clean buzzing sound as we got another core. these cores were anywhere from 2 inches to 6 inches deep generally, 1/2 or 1 inch of wood used to cover the arch, and several inches deep of layer after layer of paint, and an occasional bit of the actual carved wood of the arch...it's amazing how many layers of paint there were...and every single one could be clearly seen in side view...so many varying shades of white. then white again. then layer of gray which meant it was fire and smoke damage, a another layer of white, some yellow, more gray and then black which was a fire in the arch itself...someone had pulled the chandeliers too near the arch at somepoint and the radiating heat had resulted in a large area of damage that had been painted over several times to cover it....fascinating.....

finally done with all the required core samples we shipped them out and could move on to doing the same thing in every other area of the theater, the bathrooms, the lobby, the balcony, the side walls and the back hallways....all in hopes of finding the exact begining of the woodwork and the very first color to ever be applied in the theater. when the core samples were chemically separated in a lab and scientifically analyzed for lead content as well as other chemical make up (basically, trying to recreate the recipe used by those hired by mr. ziefield), they were recreated in the lab to see if the resulting color was anywhere near the actual oolor visibly separated from the core....an amazing thing to see and fascinating to experience, but it was like magic when you witnessed how it all comes together....each core sample was plotted, right? so as each color was recreated, there were two copies of the plots given to the labs. the dirty, orginal sample pulled from the core was attached as a sample to the plot chart, which gave a variety of hues, all within the same color scheme...varying due to smoke damage from fire or from patrons smoking in the theater.... then the recreated colors, made from scratch by chemical analysis and recomposed by the labs were applied to a chart in the same way...we found the base color was the right color and would be maintained by disney, albeit, without the lead content...here's where it gets most interesting and memorable though....

we now have analyzed and determined which of the samples was truest to ziegfield's vision for his follies house. we took paint samples in that color up the scaffold ourselves and painted a large square of color over each core sample marker so we could see which color would truly help light up the space. we remembered to take our flashlights back with us somehow....it was probably almost 6 months since we'd put up the scaffolding inside. the theater, very slowly, and still unknown to the passersby outside on 42nd street, was coming together and looking like it could possibly raise from the dead to offer new life to the theatrical masses...it still needed major surgery, not just a face lift but major reconstruction, but the walls and seats were swathed in streaks of color, paint samples, new fabric samples, pieces of wood brought in and fitted to missing molding and waiting to be blended into the walls...we had uncovered murals on the walls, they were being carefully documents and plotted to be recreated...but this one day we found buried treasure!

when the ziegfield theater became the new amsterdam after mr. ziegfield died, it was no longer a show palace and home of burlesque reviews, but instead it was the equivelent of today's broadway theaters. it had been wired for electricty, retro-fitted for the newest in stage lighting and revamped to remove excessive fixtures once required because gas lamps were not as strong as other lightening for the theater. at the same time, the stage area and the arch had been modified, which we were unable to see from the architectural renderings borrowed from the city files. as we stood on top of the now second nature scaffolding and step ladders, we took turns peering into three extra holes drilled for core samples, but yielding nothing but mystery, that is until now....remember, we had heard metal being ground into. it wasn't structural, we were certain, there was not a single support beam to the roof or on the roof that would correspond with our current position in the building. the first hold showed darkness, but deep darkness, close to two feet in depth. the second hole showed the same thing - but this is where we'd heard something odd...we could see nothing but darkness...the third hole showed the same....we were confused. maybe the metal was somehow attached to the arch and we'd scraped it drilling thru? was it attached to the boards that had covered the arch and the stage opening? someone got a piece of rebar that was up on the scaffold. we took this 6 foot long piece of steel meant for reinforcement and pushed it thru the first hole to see how deep this odd opening was. easily 1/3 of the rod was swallowed up the same with the second and the third. this was a uniform opening. peter got a small lead weight from his bag, along with some twine, he pushed it thru the opening and let it go. softly we heard an echoing thud from all three holes. the space behind the wall was hollow and it was deep in bepth as well as height. we had no idea how wide it was other than what we knew, we drilled every 4 inches so it was atleast 8 inches wide probably more than 12 inches wide since looking in with the lights, we'd not seen a wall or structural piece near the hole, the rebar couldn't be angled properly to find where the next solid side wall was on either side....we got the sawsall and ran a 100' extension cord up the scaffold and under the arch. the disney folks were not happy and the contractor was about to have a fit. we needed to see what this was before someone else found out the hard way and got injured...this is our job, we're in charge, it's what we do....the dirty work and the delegation...disney execs were busy climbing the scaffold so they could stop us. peter didn't listen, he was not about to take direction from the cartoon climbers. instead, he put the jigsaw type blade in the first hole and joined it to the second and then the third. then he gently allowed it to follow a fairly straight line down from the third to approximately where the weight had thudded in our non-scientific test. he repeated the same process at the first hole and the carefully and slowly worked across the bottom in a jaggedly straight line. the large chunk of rotting wood was starting to tip out of the hole he'd created and with blue sky shining thru the falling ceilings and all kinds of spotlights and flood lights aimed off the scaffolding down to the workers beneath as well as those of use above, we all gasped as ruth ellman screamed the single most blood curdling scream i've ever heard in this lifetime - behind the wall was a woman's head.

the saw stopped, the hole gaped open as a few guys lifted away the rotted wood and we all crushed in to the viewing area to see why ruth had almost gotten hysterical - we knew her well enough to know she was a tough cookie and not prone to hystrionics. i'll be damned. a head. covered in soot, in rot, in chips of paint and sawdust, but obviously a very beautiful woman when she'd been alive...a ziegfield girl, perhaps a ziegfield lover, immortalized forever in bronze and left to her own lonely devices these last hundred years, sealed into the walls of a theater that should never have spoken again, yet alone given up such sad secrets!

the disney executives, rushing to the sight of the scream, screaming and ranting themselves, were about to fire anyone they could (as if...good luck disney guys, you're powerful, but the theater was owned by lasalle for the privacy and secrecy of your project....no way were you pulling anything on us...you'd have been singing circle of life on the circle line if you hadn't backed off and shut up! contractors were called up to help remove the head from the ravine. as they tried to lift her out they realized she wasn't fully intact....she had been more than a head...and she was lying in a pool of some of her own parts....

this beautiful creature had been a fixture in the theater somewhere, but where...her various loose parts were a puzzle to be recreated on the floor with too many helping hands...then it dawned on us. she had been a gas lamp fixture. the beautiful face would have covered the gas pipe fittings and the loose pieces were branches each containing a gas fueled flame that would have been covered with a brightly colored hand blown glass globe....these were not found in the carnage....but where did she belong? this mystery would plague us for several more weeks....that is until the day the demolition of the reconstructed arch began....

the idea was to remove the overlaying rotted wood that been the movie screen. then we would visually and physically inspect the underlying original arch. professionals were to be called in to assess it's structural integrity and to find how much would need rebuilding/replacing/rethinking. three boards into the removal (remember, this is 2 1/2 stories above ground and boards were floor to ceiling as well as wall to wall - that's a lot of boards to pull out especially when you have to fear falling forward and thru to the floor on the opposite side, since we'd yet to explore that side or set up scaffolding . the only thing in place on the other side was the netting on the external rooftop to prevent the animals and other debris being added to the interior disaster area already in place.

three boards into this labor of love, we had our first clue to where the beautiful head went...there was an arched recess in the archway itself...in this recess however, we found a body....a bronze body....life size, a woman's body in a diaphanous gown. no arms or hands though. we found them later. as the boards continue to be jettisoned into a dumpster below the scaffold, more recesses were uncovered, it wasn't a fluke. the stage had been lit completely from above as well as below, with open flames. that explained why we had found so much fire damage in the paint cores along the top of the arch, so close to where the ceiling should have been. they must have used these lights for the theater before the performance began so the audience could read the playbill and people watch in the boxes....when the show was set to start, a gas line must have been turned off from some central area, dimming the entire theater and allowing the gas lines that lit the stage to be brought up. if you know how gas lines work, you can't run lights on one line in one part of a building at the same time as those on the same line in a different part of the building. if you do, the lights will drop drastically in one area as the gas is diverted to the second area and neither will have very good lighting as both are residually splitting the available gas which causes the lights to flare and drop, or worse, occasionally extinguish, and then create a fire as the gas pours out of the dead light then suddenly explodes above another lighted flame, catching anything light and flammable nearby to burn (an a-ha moment for me - it explained all the smoke and fire damages we'd encountered and couldn't put a solid reasoning to).

over the course of several weeks, we recovered the bodies of four such woman. each, decapitated and with arms and hands missing. often times, when we found another of the female heads, we would find branches for gas lamps but no glass work to accompany them. then one day, we found the mother load. the arch was nearly fully exposed and we were working near the bottom of the scaffolding. on either side of the arch, there were recessed areas for the gaslamps yet again, if i recall, we found 12 or 18 of them between stage left and stage right, each 2 feet deep, 2 feet tall and just under 2 feet wide. near the base of the arch was suddenly discovered another random treasure trove of body parts, it was a mass grave, a jumble of tumbled arms and severed hands. fingers missing, forarms cracked in half or smashed flat. they had been lovingly maintained for years of the theater being a jewel in new york's crown and one day, these lovely doyenne's of a by gone era had become obsolete and out of style...their art deco clothing and antiquated hair styles and poses, once mitigated by the follies themselves, had become relics of what had been and not at all the forward thinking ladies who were now asserting themselves and changing the rules of history in america.

in total we found 4 full statuesque bronze woman, and when we laid the parts out prior to sending them off to a foundry (a spa if you will, for the bronze woman in each of us!) we discovered that indeed, there would have never been more than 4 of these woman...the branches that held their glass globes of fire were each representative of a season in nature...so that was it, buried treasures from nature as envisioned by flo ziegfield. but what of the two extra heads found? well, i'll tell you...once the arch had been optimally uncovered and the theater beautifully and historically recreated to within an inch of most of our lives, these heads were the lightening fixtures that once had lined the upper balconies of the theater, surrounded by painted and carved, gold gilt and leaf, these heads had shown down on the wealthy people with all the radiance of the noon-time sun.

as for the 4 women, they were located in the main entry, as soon as you had handed your ticket in and crossed the foyer threshold into the main lobby area, you were walking into a semicircular carpeted cocktail bar that then descended gently into a plush theater and the best seats in the house. these for beauties had held dominion over those who entered and those who left, bidding each patron a good evening a glorious welcome to the most spectacular even to grace the stage. the bronze foundry was employed to recreate the missing fingers, correct the broken arms and smashed arms...since there were 4 nearly complete pieces it was much easier to recreate them since we had pieces to be copied from. the bronze ladies alone were nearly $5 million to excavate, repair, rewire with electric lighting and the capping glory - they were each fitted with custom made tiffany and company stained glass globes....we were never able to document if that was correct or not, but it certainly fit the grandeur and the feel of the theater. in the end, we had a second set of these ladies cast for the theater - bronze understudies if you will...they would have also lit the 3rd floor rooftop area where the patrons enjoyed the hanging gardens...unfortunately, disney and co spent several hundred million dollars to fix, refinish and repair the theater, that is prior to the expense of actually installing a show there and making it ready to run as a theater again, so they put recreating the rooftop garden theater on hold. that was 13 years ago. the rooftop is till off limits. the lion king is no longer the king of his once proud domain in the new amsterdam theater (i believe he's living over at the broadway now that beauty and the beast finally closed, phew!) one day, i hope they do finish the rooftop and open it to the public again, but for now, all i know, secret project "super-cali-frag-il-ist-ic-ex-pe-al-i-dotious may all ready be underway with them (can you tell from that clue that mary poppins is currently the disney tenant at said theater?).

i hope you enjoyed my most exciting and priceless memory from a job i loved. it's now taken two hours to type it up and i'm sorry that i can't share the pictures of it, but when i left my job, they were property of the firm....if you have the chance, go see a show at the theater, and witness first hand a piece of my personal history. yes the tickets are too expensive now, but the opportunity to walk on ground once tread by untold celebrities and to sit in the very seats of the infamous ziegfield, you will almost certainly hear strains of rehearsal piano if you sit with eyes closed and listen intently for a minute....and it's true, you might even have the exhilerating scare of seeing your own ghostly follies girl...they're in their, and not every beautiful girl is in bronze.






Friday, October 12, 2007

today was the quintessential mid-october day in new york....

the rain ended late last night, the sun burned brilliantly in a gorgeous cerulean blue sky only interrupted by the thick clouds that were blowing across the city and out to sea a hundred miles from here....

Thursday, October 11, 2007

had a great visit with mom here for a few days....

and of course, as soon as i got her to port authority, it was time to quickly push her into the bus and toss up her luggage so she could get home earlier in this wet weather....then i went to mail her letters in the post office on the main level at port authority, only to find that not only had mom not handed off her postal needs to me, but i left my umbrella in her suitcase by accident....i had to then walk 19 blocks to the hospital for a scheduled doctor's visit, in the rain and mist....of course, about 10 blocks into it, the sun and heat came out to blast me with humidity...and me, dressed in heavy denim and long sleeves that wouldn't role up....i was really miserable....

so i got to the doctor's, the nurse did the vitals, told me i was a lard ass. the doctor saw me. gave me a tb (ppd) test since it's been a while and i always love to take a random test that i'm fairly sure i can pass....they took 9 vials of blood....it was very slimming....and then i got my flu shot and basically skipped all the way home from the hospital since i was in an excellent mood from mom's visit and seeing medical specialists who really treat me like a human being and listen to what i say and ask my thoughts on what they say....most excellent!

that changed in a little while though...shortly after i got home, i started having palpitations and got shaky and now i'm feverish....the flu shot....drat....the problem i have with eating eggs - i don't eat eggs...they asked if i was allergic to eggs and of course i said no, but oops, maybe i am after all....so much for not getting the flu...i think i'm having it now....which really stinks since they are fumigating my apartment this morning and i can't be here all day...where am i going to go and pass out until 5pm? the library or the museum? it's raining out, so i can't passout in the park like i would have....this isn't going to be a fun day. at all. atleast with any luck, the pest problem will be nipped and tucked away....better be after all the money it's been costing....and the medical issues....i had to get a note from my doctor so the landlord would pay the $900 fumigation fee....i am going to report them to the nyc department of health...they're instigating a very serious health risk to not only me, but anyone else in the building....like i said to the landlord after he pissed me off one time too many with his rhetoric and runaround: hey, i don't have a garden, so i don't need your load of crap today. when he questioned that, i responded with another classic, you know, my cow is dead, so i don't need your bull.

and that's my life today...in a nutshell (for bob) and a nuthouse (for reality).....more later, including mom's pics from the visit....maybe even some haircare chat about her new color and the double process and highlights we gave her....stay tuned.....

Monday, October 8, 2007

destination television....it's primetime and the destination is my couch.....

so many shows!!! thank the powers that be (read that time warner manhattan cable!) for the magic of tivo and my new dvr....yes, i had digital cable and dvr before, but the cable never worked because one of the neighbors managed to hijack my rooftop connection and disconnect me....i did prove it to the cable company when i climbed to the roof with them though....i didn't pay for the 6 months they'd billed me since i had cable for a sum total of maybe 9 days....

bygones! now that's in the past and my cable is perfect...and so is the new viewing season...finally reason to sit home and grow progressively larger in the butt area....tradeoffs....but that's another blog and not my own.

i am getting up to speed on old and new series alike....some i've never managed to see in the past and some are just too worthwhile not to remind you to catch them if you can....so, here's goes....

  • Dancing with the Stars - granted it's been on for 4 prior seasons, but it's all new again....same professional dancers, but they're worth drooling over, male and female, regardless of the public inability to make an informed voting decision....hello? you got rid of the sports illustrated cover model (granted, she can't dance), and the hot young male model....sure, he danced like a stripper they said, but he gave everyone hope that maybe one day he would....or maybe at least suffer a wardrobe malfunction like the one that happened the first season to kelly monaco (the winner, a soap actress) - her dress exploded during the final routine and her top flew off....she managed to finsh the dance with one arm over the boobage and the other in proper latin finger formation (jazz hands, YEAH!) see, you can't not watch tv like this....it's a trainwreck waiting to happen... and everyone loves a good trainwreck....that said, wayne newton is still there....so there's bound to be a collision or a derailment in the near future...my vote goes to jenny garth from 90210....she's still beautiful, she's shy, approachable and oh so normal while having a bit of sizzle. of course there's some hot fast competition coming up fast behind in my book like the race car driver and the cheeto cheese puff girl.....watch it! monday at 8pm eastern on ABC - check your local listings or catch full episodes on ABC.com
  • Ugly Betty -- easily the best show to hit television since the year 2000 when reality shows began dominating the airwaves. finally something witty, clever, tart, bitchy, sarcastic, dark, evil, fun and fashionable not to mention fashion challenged! living in nyc, i love the pure mock-umentary feel of it....it's the devil wears prada brought to the jcpenny crowd! i'm going to save up and buy season 1 on dvd when it's out...i only saw the last episode of the first season and it made me laugh so hard i cried, that was before gunshots rang out and i really bawled my eyes out...enough said. TUNE in! ABC Thursdays 8pm eastern
  • Cane -- an epic of biblical proportions that both misses the mark and was slower than a plague of locusts. An all star cast from Rita Moreno and Jimmy Smits to some hot young soap folks and the only other hispanic actor ever to work Hector Elizondo....what a waste. Cane centers around the sugar cane farms of southern florida and a family with a rum based empire...i should have known by that alone....i hate rum....and rum and coke is a waste of coke...which i also dislike....overall, i feel the best way avoid this would be a quick slash and burn....either cut the show from the schedule or burn the fields and stop the family from having any more of their slow and unmoving traumas. No idea of the date or time or network - i deleted it from dvr after 1 episode.
  • big bang theory -- funny, funny, funny....not sexy....per se....but smart....a level of smart that a lot of people won't stay tuned for....i don't know if they'll get an audience that they might if it were more low-brow....but if you watch more than an espisode, the characters of sheldon and leonard are well written, geniuses with petty quirks and primal urges....one of the funniest lines the first episode was one of the guys ruminating on the hot new female neighbor (penny,)..."our babies will be smart and beautiful". to which his counterpart responded "not to mention, imaginary". now come on....how can you not want to root for these poor clueless bastards?! they have a trio of uber-geek friends that will make you laugh just at the meet-cute of the episode....watch for doctor spock, the stereo-typical indian genius and another random geek....if you don't laugh out loud, i'll have to laugh even louder alone! Monday nights, check local listings.
  • ghost whisperer -- great show, even though i can't stand j-love hewett. why do they allow her to keep dressing herself? sure, she's got major boobage, but come on, she dresses like she's always on her way to a luau or somewhere else you'd where a butt-ugly mumu to...and yes, she dresses like that when not on tv too. she has a hot hubby. she sees dead people. she freaks people out and often will leave you emotionally drained by the end of an episode if you're at all human....the foibles of the dead are as trying as those of the undead....and in some cases, they're far worse....Fridays 8pm CBS
  • dog whisperer -- this guy's an idiot. he's named after a gourmet dog food (cesars) and not a dead dog or ghost to speak of. everything you can learn from this dud, not dude, dud, you can learn by putting your dog on a leash and taking it for a walk....now if your dog sees dead people, melinda, the ghost whisperer has previously dealt with that on her show, so watch her for a fix of someone whispering.....skip it.
  • dirty sexy money -- subtle, smart, funny, didn't suck me right in, but it got me....not quite SOAP from the 70's, and not the Dynasty of the 80's but definitely heading towards the Melrose Place of the 90's kind of fun and debauchery...without all the hotties sleeping together since here, they're all siblings....this is the first time i've run into a real live tranny pretending to act....oh Candis Cayne...i knew you when....you know...before you're little snippety do-dah-day....heck, i think i helped pay for your female nose...wasn't that a party at the palladium in the early 90's before they tore down the discos? i'll ask fletcher, i'm sure i was there with him....but come on candy....when you were drag queen, you couldn't act, sing, or dance, but you were funny....now that you've become the bionic super bitch, you're not even funny....stop taking yourself so damn seriously, you've got more plastic parts than my ikea entertainment center and way less longevity....Wednesdays ABC 10PM
  • the Bionic Woman -- not Candis, but still creepy and totally rebuilt....and actually, equally hard to know if it's live or mammarex....i expected this show to go in one of two directions, hoping it would go towards the original version, you know a camp classic with unbearable dialog and fun battles....nope....went creepy and sci-fi....with indiscernible dialog and violent fight scenes. i canceled this from my dvr immediately after 1 episode. i'm sure it will last though....sci-fi fans are a freaky bunch who are certain to embrace this next embodiment of non-entertainment just because they're hoping one day to find that bionics and such will allow for personality transplants, or atleast implants. Skip it on NBC.
  • Private Practice -- enough with the freakin' medical bullshit....if i see one more suture, or another head wound or another naked doctor....have you been in a hospital anytime recently? well, i have, and believe you me, there is no doctor, steamy, dreamy, hottie, tottie, stuffy, muffy, buffy, or even cutie that i've encountered and nyc has the best of all possible residents...you know they picked the hottest ones available, since that's what HR folks do...off the record....the false representation of hot doctors is misleading and will only serve to increase waiting times in e.r. waiting rooms in the long run....besides, if it's private, keep it off the tv. and if you still need practice, stay home and call us when you've got it down to a science. by then, maybe you're going realize there's more on tv than reality programs and medical dramas....

by the way, did i mention i live in big sky city.....


when i was in wyoming, i was amazed by the constant exposure to sun, sky, and of course the dirt....turns out, when i got home, i started paying more attention (i can afford to pay that!) to my surroundings and turns out that not only do i have a lot of sky, and too much sun, but whoa baby! the dirt is unbelievable!

i had to post this for mona so she would know that i was getting my daily recommended allowance of big sky.

oh, and mom, just because i enjoy knowing there's a big sky here as well as there....i'm not moving out of nyc....atleast not for now....but i've learned, never say never....i think the devil must have invented the word never...it's deceptive, definitive and finite. it is known to cause untold trouble for those who unwittingly employ it and later have to find a way to back up their claims of "never".

the famous "il mercato" created by fiorello laguardia under the elevated train tracks along park avenue.....


the trains, amtrak and metro north, still run on this elevated train trestle....right near my house almost....you can hear their whistles in the dark and it is haunting....hell, the first time was like 3am and it was really scary...woke me up and i didn't know if i'd really heard it or not.....

underneath, an entire city block, salvaged 50 years ago by fiorello laguardia (then mayor of nyc, later the subject of the fabled musical, "fiorello") and made into a neighborhood green-market....now it's an indoor market with an entire city block of empty space outside that's fenced in and has great potential...i think it's the holiday market for christmas shopping, trees, etc....it's very close to the harlem terminal of this train at 125th....which is a very large terminal and ticket office...i guess a lot of folks come into the city by train and exit here so they can get to the airports more easily by bus....either way, it's a great place to shop (butcher, fish monger, flower market, veggies....plants....etc) and an even better place to walk by when you just want to peruse.....

bill clinton has cast a dark shadow over a lot of lives......


the federal office building on 125th street is directly in front of this entire row of gorgeous and nicely maintained brownstones...they run the entire city block on 126th street with the federal building taking up about 2/3 of the lot across from them....i had to take this photo, actually, i had to go home for my camera and come back another day to capture this because i found it so ironic.....bill clinton has his office on the top floor of the federal building and i think he's a jackass....a liar and an adulterer...not to mention the cause of the current cataclysmic events that decimate our lives and kill innocent children because they want to make more of themselves than their families (in this neighborhood esepecially!) have been able to provide....clinton being here is a "boon" to the 'hood....in reality, it's next to mcdonalds and kfc, so he's white trash, i mean right at home here....but his presence casts and appalling shadow over all the lives he comes in contact with....notice how the middle of the block suddenly is dark....that's all him....the building are all the same shade of brownstone....i hate war...and i hate politics....but i really hate that the blame for what happens today is placed squarely on the shoulders of those who inherited it from the ones who wreaked havoc under the surface and left a legacy of war and pain for the next generation. thanks bill....and that hillary.....what a politician. i'm glad they spent their leftover money to buy new york state residency so she can be president....at least i know i'll never run into them here....that's one name dropping run in i can live without.

the upper end of fifth avenue, looking from harlem to the empire state building....


yep, dead center, that short, squat spired building is actually the grand daddy of the world's tallest buildings!

see if you can count how many stories are visible...if i'm not mistaken, it's 110 stories to the top of the building when you are there....i know if you stand on the sidewalk under it and look straight up, a) you will fall down, dizzy, to the ground and b) you will see the building actually swaying in the breeze...yes, that is true.....and yes.... it will keep me from working in that building again if i could help it.

this is from the base of mount morris, the highest point on fifth avenue....there's a tree or is that building blocking half of the building i know, but still, you can only see 1/2 of the building at best....that's 70 blocks from where this was snapped....completely walkable....and a few blocks down from here (on the right), is the northern edge of my lawn (central park). thank goodness i don't have to mow it!

a rose by any other name smells just as sweet.....


but in this secret garden in harlem, the fence kept me from smelling just how sweet it was....this rose garden was wall to wall PERFECT buds. every bush a different color and impeccably maintained.

it is the rose garden that is owned by the parish of the oldest established church in harlem - the elmendorf (methodist or unitarian or lutherern?) church....the same building, with some alterations and additions (which obviously were done more recently when money and taste were hard to come by) has been open and fully functional since 1668. that's pretty amazing. that's 300 years older than me....i think i'll go stand next to that church more often....it makes me look young....and slim!

this is the view to the east from the top of mount morris - that's the tri-borough bridge....


i love this view...you can't see how pretty the bridge really is in this shot, but you can see how big it is and how close it it....

the base of this bridge is on 125th street, the dividing line on my side of harlem between america/nyc and the bronx.
as i found out last weekend, quite by accident, if you don't exit the m60 bus on 125th street at second avenue, then it immediately goes across this bridge....to wards island/randall's island/queens....you want to see someone cry on a public bus? you should have been there...i'd been having a bad couple of weeks and finally had a good day. dragged myself to the grocery store and couldn't drag myself home so decided to take the bus....it's only a few blocks from my place and thought i could get off on first avenue...i was distracted by a witty and highly entertaining text message from my friend tom, and voila! i was well on my way to laguardia airport....

on the plus side, i have to admit, i stayed on the bus for the entire ride (i was loathe to exit, cross the 8 or 10 lanes of crazy traffic in every direction to find a bus stop to get back)...i knew if i wen to the end of the line, it would repeat the loop or atleast leave me at a terminal with easy access to a ride back...turns out, from my apartment, i can walk the 6 blocks to 125th street and pay $2, hop on the m60 and get to the airport. what a deal. it's a $45 value or more, in rush hour....now if only i were flying somewhere and needed to go to the airport on purpose.

the surprise ampitheater at the top of mount morris....


the day i discovered this spot, they were having the annual Harlem competitive dance-off (ballet, jazz, flamenco, tap and hip-hop) up here....i have no idea how they had the stage brought up all those steps since there is no road...then again, how did they quarry all the stone up to here? this is probably about 4 acres in size to give you a proper perspective...it's a giant circle, all large bedrock stones, cut and laid in patters. off to one side - your left, is the top of the mountain, currently fenced off, and my photo was bad, sorry. this was (in the 1700's) used as a lookout and was a fortification since it looked down all the way to wall street (now there are a few trees that are too tall to see, but from the bell tower, you sure can see the world!) you can see the bronx and yankee stadium from up here too. granted, it's only about 100 blocks away, but still....the bronx is like a different country....and you thought i needed my passport when i moved to harlem! turns out i do, but they don't stamp it....they just want to make sure you've got your shots.....

the steps from the park to the top of the mount....


sorry, there is no way that i can figure out to capture this stroll and accurately give you a good depth perception...suffice to say, i made mom go back with me the last time she visited and we climbed it together, granted, i couldn't walk last time she was here, since i had been sick and constantly in the hospital for a few weeks prior, but my lame condition not withstanding (or standing sometimes!), even mom admitted it was a lot of work climbing it and we both felt we needed a nap by the time we reached the bottom again about an hour later....

the park closest to my apartment, bisecting fifth avenue, upper manhattan to lower manhattan.....


this is marcus garvey park. it's about 6 city blocks long and 3 LONG city blocks wide....that's pretty big. this park was set up in the 1700's. at the center of the park (in the background -- look for the rock formation) is the highest natural point on fifth avenue....perhaps in manhattan, but i've not been able to verify that yet. this is the famous mount morris. if you walk into the park there is a very wide (15 or 20 feet wide) circular staircase cut into the bedrock of the mount. it it winds in a very steady and very gentle slope of several hundred cut stone steps to the very top of mount morris. what a view!

close up of the gargoyle rainspouts protecting the halls of liberty and justice....


each pediment surrounding the tower is topped by a watchful gargoyle...notice how he is in the flash-joint area (the gully if you will) between the two adjoining tower peaks....very clever way of disguising an unsightly joining of stone masonry, while providing the essential need to have the water not sit and freeze in the joist....also notice, above the clock face, there is an inverted peace sign in the circle...is that ironic or decorative? the halls of justice probably offer no peace, i think it's really subtle but essentially symbolic (gosh, anyone else think i've got too much time on my hands?)

my favorite building in my neighborhood - the historic court house circa 1881.....


this is my favorite gothic building in harlem.... the cornerstone reads Harlem Court House Erected A.D. 1881. The garret is the clock tower with six vaulted "towers" surrounding the central tower. of the six, two are ornate victorian bronze clock faces, and they are accurate to the minute according to my mobile phone....the subsequent clock faces are iron lightening rods as the building was, and still is, one of the highest points in the historic neighborhood....

my favorite church in harlem....

it's huge and has tile mosaices instead of oil paintings inside.....the oldest that mom and i saw on her last visit while we explored together was from about 1250 a.d.....incredible! i love that kind of stuff.... this is the bell tower for the carillon....there are 30 bells that ring through harlem every sunday, at eventide and for funerals and marriages....while this church could possibly seat about 2000 people including the choir loft, their membership is fewer than 100 people now as the importance of organized religion escapes the grasp of todays youth...let's chalk that up to hip-hop culture (no, that's not an ethnic slur, i mean it to encompass the generation after mine...and i will include myself in generation x, or is that xxx, either way, i'm very much on the very fringe of that generation since i'm almost too old to be included....)

i know, i know...you're all waiting for my reviews on the new tv season....right....

not to worry, i've been mastering the art of tivo and dvr....and now....i'm almost caught up completely on every show worth watching (and wait until you get the dis-list!) thanks to the art of tivo, atleast the dis-list is not wasting a full 30 or 60 minutes of my life....oh greater power that controls all the meat puppets of the universe, please heap your blessings on the inventor of the dvr and the tivo! watch for the reviews....

mom is coming to visit tomorrow thru wednesday (yeah!!!!) and may even stay until thursday...we'll see....either way, i'm trying to follow her home for a few days out of the city, hopefully i'll get to visit with p.j. and clark while mom and jim continue on to charlottesville to visit aunt pat in the hospital. perhaps the tv reviews will need to wait until this week is over...then again, perhaps i'll just go ahead and whip off a much abbreviated version tonight....i'm feeling inspired...or is that insipid...either way, if you'll read it, i'll write it.

wadeo

Sunday, October 7, 2007

ok, i'm really logging out...but here's some haiku to get you in the right frame of mind....

i'm sure everyone remembers creating haiku in about the 3rd grade....we wrote an entire poetry book that year...i still have mine....pathetic, i know, but still some of the most sincere and moving sentiments to come out of my pen in the last 39 years.....and so blatently honest....not to worry, these are not them....these are, um, how does one say....of a certain nature that is neither nurtured nor natural....these haiku....just....are.....how's that? very p.c.

remember. 5 syllables first row. 7 syllables second row. 5 syllables third row. that must convey the entire sentiment of your haiku, thematics if you will....please don't email me grief about how haiku needs to be a) in japanese or it's just words, or b) relevant to weather or a natural event, or c) flowing and emotional....if that's what you're looking for in your haikus (mind you for free....without any effort other than scrolling my page...), then please refrain from reading them and perhaps you might choose to go on to the next blog (top left corner of the blog header if i'm not mistaken....)

  • Ab Fab preempted
By Queer Eye for the Straight Guy:

My life, on TV.

  • Sitting at the bar.
My soul filled with deep longing

And deeper terror.

  • No more empty sex:
It is interfering with

My TV schedule.

  • "Hope springs eternal."
Don't people realize this is

A very bad thing?

  • It's our second date,
And I'm not sure I love you.

It's time to break up.

  • You were perfection.
Then you misspelled "embarrassed."

Don't call me again.

  • "You understand, right?"
Yes, of course i understand.

(And I hope you die.)

  • English has no words
For what we did together.

Oh, wait: "Tedious."

  • Teens now: out, proud, and
Ignorant of Auntie Mame.

Pyrrhic victory?

  • Your lips are so soft.
Your conversation graceful.

It's just -- you're not him.

  • When he leaves the room,
If i don't burst into tears,

Then is it still love?

  • I'm not judgmental.
It's just that I have standards

You will never meet.

  • "The spark is just gone."
I can fix that easy, with

Some gas and a match.

  • I'd say "I love you" --
But i'm worried that i won't

Mean it tomorrow.

wow....what a day....beautiful day for the beach in new york city....and what am i doing at noon....

hmmm, let's see, around 7 a.m. i still had not fallen asleep. damned insomnia, even with a freakin' pill, wide awake, skin crawling since i'm so tired....AGAIN.

got up and decided if the landlord couldn't honor his promise to send the exterminator last weekend (i waited since the prior monday when i called and explained my problem, which i won't bore you, or gore you with, but suffice to know it's one of those things that leaves me feeling like something is always trying to crawl on me....) now it's two weeks ago, he promised me a visit from the exterminator on saturday. i sat here patiently all weekend, i even got up and answered the buzzer from the street, which by the way, doesn't work in my apartment....sure i can hear it. it scares the life out of me and i never answer it since i'm never expecting anyone or anything to be delivered. this is nyc....harlem even, like i'm going to be the one who let's in a mass murderer....especially since i'm generally locked in here 24/7. anyway, i opened the door. it was someone with fliers. ass. exterminator didn't come. didn't call landlord. didn't pay rent. lawyers told me not to. i assumed they spoke with him, since he hasn't harrassed me this month beyond delivery of my rent notice...how many people honestly don't know they owe rent on the first of the month? i find it so much more than irritating just having that reminder, even if that's the law....i know when the rent's due....i just have issue with paying it....not that i can't. i just won't anymore. in fact, this morning i've decided i'm going to start looking for a new apartment. yeah, i know, i just moved....i love the apartment....except i hate the creature comforts it comes with...and i do mean creatures....

so it's noon. i've fumigated and left the place for a few hours while i went across to the laundry AGAIN and did 11 loads of laundry. what an ass-pain. and a sucky added expense. that's like $40 which i have been doing every week or two depending on how often and how effective "fumigation - the home game" has been. apparantly today was not a success. i came in and vaccuumed up two filters full of death and gore...but something is definitely hopping around. given the thorough mopping and vaccuuming i gave it in here, it can not be dust....is that even remotely possible? i just wet mopped the entire freakin' place....

lucky for me, i had just bought tall kitchen trash bags....so as each of the 11 loads of stuff was dry, i folded it oh so neatly....it's my hobby....that and washing dishes....yes, i make a very good house frau....except in order to keep my clothing from being reinfested before the fumigation happens for real...everything is sealed up in trash bags to suffocate any fuckers that find their way in....now even my housedress is unreachable....and of course the simple sequin number i wore to do the laundry, with the stylish aunt jemima babushka on my head, are both riddled with sweat and unsuitable to wear for after church...it was a little daring to go with sequins so early, but i thought maybe i could pull of the "walk of shame with laundry" look....you know, i must have carried it with me when i went out last night and was just dragging home....goodness knows, dragging is now an understatement.....

so, i debugged, or so i thought. then laundered and vacuum packed my belongings....so when i got done and needed to shower, i decided, all the towels are clean...and on the bottom...of course....FUCK IT.....i had a new role of bounty....they sure as shit are the quicker picker uppers....i only used 8 of them....and now, they're hanging over the towel bar, still a single row and i'm going to test them to see how many showers they will last thru....after all, it's only the clean water i'm using it for....right?

and how's your sunday? if you thought life was all glitz and glamour up here in spa-ha, well no.....HA-HA-HA-HARLEM is just not that happening today....oh, we did have a big bang earlier...i missed it somehow, but saw it on the news as i was folding each shirt, sock and piece of outerwear with love....seems there was an explosion in a brownstone right on 119th street....and that's the street that i live next too (i'm between 118 and 119 on first avenue)....an illegal restaurant that had a thriving clientel, atleast before the explosion blew the front of the building out around 7:30am....i think i'll set off more poison and go search out hte explosion instead of breathing it again....

later gators.....

here are a few helpful travel phrases for those of you not already fluent in french (finally, right?!)...

  • je pense en francais; donc je suis

Shuh-ponce on fron-SAY; donk shuh swee

I think in French, therefore I am.

  • je pense; donce je suis francais
Shuh ponce; donk shuh swee fron-SAY.

I think; therefore I am French.

  • Ce vin a de la jambe, mais il a la fesse fripee.
Suh VAN ah duh lah shom-buh. may eel ah lah FESS free-pay.

This wine has great legs, but it's buttocks are wrinkled.

  • Quel superbe bouquet de doisettes et de sardines!
Kell sy-PAIR-buh bouqet duh NWAN-zet ay duh sar-DEEN!

What a delightful aroma of hazelnuts and sardines!

  • Le Vouvray a des asperites mais il est sincere (une favorite, moi-meme!)
Luh voo-VRAY ah day ZAH-spare--ee-tay may eel AY san-sair

The Vouvray is pimply but forthright.

  • Le boudin noir est un peu trop lourd a mon gout (pour Loulou aupres de Carcassone.....)
Luh boo-dan NWAR ay tuhn pug troh LOOR ah mohn goo.

Pig's blood sausage is just too rich for me.

  • Je ne pense pas que ce soit la saison pour du civet de tripes d'oie au sang.
Shuh ne ponce pah kuh suh swah lah SAY-zohn poor dy SEE-vay duh TREEP dwah oh sohn

I believe a stew of goose organs and goose blood is out of season.

it's 2:23am on sunday morning and i've just hung up the phone.....

it's been 20 years, (ok, really it's been 18 or maybe 19 years) since i have heard from, or spoken with, paula, via any manner of communication. a few days ago i was thrilled and surprised beyond words to find i'd had a few emails from her during my most recent 2 week stint of time "off air" with the email machine.

tonight, i had several more, in depth and very, very, very informative and personally provocative notes from her, including her wish to speak with me after 11pm my time, any night, since she has small children and a full time job in addition to the nesting duties. of course, knowing that she wanted to speak to me and realizing that it was only midnight'ish in nyc, and since i apparantly had no plans to leave the apartment (again!), i decided i'd try to ring her.

"hello?...."

"hello." i responded

"ummm....hello....?"

"yes, i said that, as did you....am i correct in assuming i have reached paula's number please?

"ummm....who is this....?"

"ummm.....who is this?" i asked back to the faltering voice on the quiet line....

"i asked you first...." (smart ass)

"i'm sorry, i must have dialed the wrong number. goodnight."

click

then i redialed.

"hello...?"

"hi, this is wade, is paula at home please?"

"did you just call and hang up on me?"

"i'm sorry, who is this? i did place a call to paula earlier, but, i must have had the wrong number, whoever answered seemed incapable of responding except with rhetorical questions...."

"ummm, wade, i'm sorry....paula's in bed already...."

"ummm, i'm sorry to call so late (when the heck did paula and her husband get so much damned older than me?) but she emailed and told me her timing....could you please let her know i called and i'll try her again another night. i'm so sorry to have disturbed you."

"no problem. i'll tell her."

"oh, and by the way, you might like to introduce yourself...i'm assuming you're her....husband? or maybe her....brother-in-law? but just so i don't think you're a burgulur or some sort of despot hiding out in her house and keeping her family hostage....that might make for a messy weekend...."

as he interrupts my train of thought, "i'm sorry, i'm her husband, my name is paul."

ummm, yeah, i knew that, check the blog...you also work at microsoft, which is why i've had so much fun yanking your chain.....then of course i replied "very nice to meet you paul, i've heard about you since high school, but never knew you were real until the other day....you've got a great catch and your kids are gorgeous....i'll let you go, but i'm sure we'll speak again sometime."

"ok, well, have a nice weekend. goodnight.....hey, wade, wait....paula's been on the phone the entire time with the mute button on...i'm sorry, i didn't know she'd answered it the second time...i just heard her cackling in the other room....hold on...she's right here....(muffled with his hand over the phone speaker i think - jeesh paula, do you know how embarrassing that was....i just made an ass out of myself and you were there, why didn't you say something....now your friend thinks i'm a total moron...click."

"HELLO!!!!!" and then the transcript stops because it's the transcribers night off and i simply hate to type, no matter how many words a minute i can crank out....i type fast as i talk, true dat...but i seldom speak and prefer the quiet and solitude of a non-typing reality for the moment.

wadeo

the reason you have two ears and one mouth is so you can listen more than you speak.....

paula's older girl abigail - she's 4

paula's baby paige - she's 2

my old crush paula, her husband paul, abigail, page and their new addition donald.

Friday, October 5, 2007

the goofy grin and eyes rolled back in his head....

Mr. Potato Head filled with ecstasyan obvious sign that mr. potato head was stuffing himself full of ecstasy pills (10.5 ounces - it's a long flight from ireland to sydney!) in order to cope with the in flight service on a aer lingus flight to australia....

this was the memory i meant to ramble about for a few minutes before i went off on my tangent .....

i got an email, two, well, three when all looked up and cross referenced between emails and classmate.com etc....from my biggest high school crush and one of the people who wound up being a close friend my senior year - including being my prom date (i asked her the first day of class senior year in homeroom and she said yes...i never thought she'd actually go through with it, yet alone be the one to come to me 7 months later to let me know what she was wearing and that she'd already bought the tickets for the dinner/dance at the manor....not only did she floor me (and all of her friends who were "cool", "popular" and hated me (notice the lack of quotes?)) but, she threw a real monkey wrench into the works since i'd accepted being uncool, unpopular, hated and ignored by my classmates after 3 + years in their school....little did i know, somehow, by association or perhaps by disassociation, i'd become cool, popular, fun, liked and actually was spoken too on occasion with neither malice nor contempt in their voices....

that said, i saw paula berardi a few times after we graduated 20 years ago. she moved to binghamton to live with her older sister diane and her family so she could dance professionally with helene yelverton dance academy (she'd done this all through high school as well - she's an amazingly gifted ballet/toe/jazz and lyric jazz dancer). she visited mom's house at the lake over christmas break and then i never heard from or saw her again...until tonight.....

she's a beautiful as she was back then and based on the mugs i've seen from my school days in the last few months, she's aging incredibly well. unfortunately, she was out here a few weeks ago and didn't find my contact info on line until last week or she would have gotten together with me. i would have loved that. she has two beautiful girls now, Abigail and Paige. they have paula's eyes, but both have blond hair! she wrote and said it must be recessive since both her mom and mother - in - law had natural blond hair when younger....i remember her mom fondly, and i can report, she had blond hair when she was older too, but it wasn't a color that happens in nature....her mom is still going strong, and she's got to be close to 90 now. unfortunately her dad died 4 years ago. that is a shame. he was a very good man. he let me borrow someone else's car one day to take paula to the mall so he didn't have to....he never told me that it wasn't their car and that it was their so it wouldn't get stolen. of course, he never asked if i had a license either....so i guess my getting kelli's car back relatively unscathed (it was a stick, i was a learner) was thanks enough for his night off from sitting in rush hour traffic on i-80.

so, since i have no pics of me this moment for posting, here's one of my biggest crush that came true....one of those moments in life that makes you realize that maybe it's better to dream than to realize a dream....after all, without dreams, we die....and some dreams can't ever be replaced.

(ok, blogspot isn't taking pictures at the moment, i'll try again another time....)

thanks for the memories....

i haven't checked email or blogs for two plus weeks. i think i'm bi-polar. thanks oprah! maybe that truly explains my innate fear of connecting with people, answering the phone and the worse anxiety producer of all - checking messages both on my answering machine or my mobile phone (that's been 8 days, until tonight that is.....) not normal, not normal, not normal. reminds me of my dear old friend in sydney, abby normal, she was a good bloke. i miss her, he was nice!

the list of messages (15 on mobile and 14 on home phone) goes like this:
  • stan (you'll be getting a call back soon, promise!)

  • automated call from pathmark supermarket's pharmacy with an automatic message to retrieve about refills or some hard to find prescription i haven't asked for yet -- the auto retrieve doesn't work

  • ron in jacksonville calling in a strange voice that sounds pekinese -- but failed to identify as my former dog sitting client, sasha, so totally not buying into it this time

  • ron again, his voice, work phone, hello, isn't one message enough?

  • ron again, voice growing agitated...called me a biatch. note to self, have a bialy from bagel store downstairs for breakfast and when you talk to him rub it in that he is stuck in florida where the meaning of judo and jew dough are disparately different things. neither of which is going to provide sustenance in his waning youth.
  • ron again, now my voice was agitated - son of a bitch! he knows my one message rule. if you haven't died i will call you back when i'm done being non-functional...but thanks for ringing and ringing and ringing and driving me further into the chasm of non-life i've been dwelling in....by the way, if you have died, it's completely ok to leave as many subsequent messages as you like, just be sure to speak slowly and clearly and let me know where you went so i can tell all your friends....don't expect a call back though - i currently don't have long distance on my home phone (i wish the phone company would figure out why this is and fix it finally, i paid them the 7.42 i owed them 4 months ago before they turned it off...weirdness). while i have unlimited calling after 9pm on my mobile (and all weekend), i really can't be bothered to figure out the country codes for where i think most of my friends might call from....easily substantiated if they call collect (sorry, wrong number, no speaka-zee-eeenglish....)
  • no message, dead air. two seconds of my life that i'll never get back. wait, make it four. i listened again in case i somehow missed it. might have been one of those collect calls....

  • beeep. beeep. beeep

  • beeep. beeep. beeep

  • beeep. beeep. beeep - yep, this is only slightly annoying so far....try being frozen to your spot as the machine goes off repeatedly....if i were anything less than sane but more than manic or psychizo i would just assume it's those who cannot be named since the alphabet has no letters in it...you know, the ones with the anal probes that cartman is so fond of...

  • beeep. beeep. beeep

  • beeep. beeep. beeep - an anal probe would have been easier than these messages now.

  • beeep. beeep. beeep

  • beeep. beeep. beeep

  • beeep. beeep. beeep - whoever you are with the freakin' fax machine, haven't you figured out that a) my fax machine is out of paper, b) or doesn't exist (ding, ding, ding, we have a winner!), c) you have the wrong freakin' number and after 11 or 15 autodials a day with no response over the course of nearly 6 months now, maybe, just freakin' maybe, you should delete my g-d phone number from your calling list.

  • psychiatrist - missed my appointment since i couldn't function and decided i hate her. shouldn't have to work so hard to get the drugs i have been on for 4 years that work....don't lead me on and have me back week after week to check up on the drugs you want me to take that i haven't filled the Rx for....oops, she doesn't catch that bit i'm sure since she doesn't comprehend the confusion of 9 or 10 scrips a month all filled at different times, is a gi-normous ass-pain when it comes to refilling them....thanks MEDICARE! life is so much better with the US of freakin' A helping fill my pill boxes...if only the co-pays were covered by Medicaid instead of my pocket and the refills could all be at once instead of what, a 3 day window before you're out of something. jackasses, from the doctors to the administrators, but mostly the paper pushing pill happy government whores elected based on plastic hair, old cash, distant youth and ability to buy what you want when you want it, regardless of grocery store item or job titles....for example, that hillary clinton fella'....he must have trousers custom made since he's got some big cajones....but i digress....

  • lawyer - call back need every pertinent detail of your needs and pending litigation/lawsuit against nyc....AGAIN....and AGAIN....and AGAIN. for the sake of all things holy roman empire related....if i could put the freakin' details into words and type it, and fit it on a freakin' card, business, birthday or other, i'd fill in their gaps to advantage, but as it is, i'm bored of hearing my gosh-darned story over, and over and over...and since i have no attention span, i find it hard to listen to it like that....so frequently, though i can't get it out in sequence anyway, i lose my place and find i've left enormous gashes of pertinent info on the cutting room floor. as much my fault as theirs? perhaps, but sheeesh....they went to law school, they should invest in a freakin' tape recorder or something....i know i'm sounding like a broken record....

  • surprise, it's ron again....i wonder if i should call him back or change my number? i'm up for input here....after 3 calls, is it stalker or concerned friend with short term memory loss? i'm going for needy then stalker and then change the number....how do you block calls from a specific number...damn me and my tech-tardedness...always pops up when it's least convenient....
that was about it from the home phone....isn't that horrible....i've been scared of listening to these messages because of an unknown terror in my mind...and the most dangerous thing i encountered was a fax machine running a muck with no supervision (by the way, yes, i *69ed the fucker, got the phone number but it's a switchboard trunc so it doesn't go to an operator, it rings back to the fax machine. i may go out and buy a fax machine from staples this weekend and just set it to autodial with their number and have it go every 7 minutes for 7 days before i return the machine for a full refund....i would put a single page into memory and it would read:

--- FAX ---

To: YOU - WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE (ASSHOLE!)

From: the guy you've driven insane for 6 months with 9,782 beeping beeping beeping messages

Subject: an AK-47 and a rooftop short of Postal....

I hate to ruin it for you, but keep dialing, when you hit 10,000 calls to my home phone, I'm fairly certain the legal system will buy the insanity plea....

Sunday, September 23, 2007

i'm having a little crush today....


i just need to be advised how far is too far when it comes to crush versus stalker versus restraining order....he's a doll and so darn cute....blush....with a name like ferrel, i'm afraid he can't be caught or kept confined....

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part mad-scientist (it's kind of like being an angry bovine only i'm still not that heavy!)